Saturday, April 2, 2005

TaKe OuT sOmE tImE to ReAd tHiS...
it's ReaLi WorTh Ur TiMe... thx~!!!

This is a story about a girl who fell in love with her
best friend..

Jin and I are best fren..we do anything that best
fren do...One day, i realised that i love him... so i
decided to confessed this feeling to him one nite
where we camp with other frens... he said yes, he
would be my boyfren..

So we went on like other couple's life does. Watch
movie, walk in park, eat together, go to beach....
but life's not fun as when we are still best fren....
he also doesnt talk much, or act like we are best
fren, close and share everything... for me, he is
not a suitable or loving a boyfren... but i kept quietly
this on my mind...

But since the day he bcome my boyfren, he every
single day would give me a small teddy bear...At
first i thought it was lovely, but till now, i wonder
why he would gav me this...

One day, i was walking alone at a park. Then i saw
Jin talking to another gurl. I walk towards him and i
overheard him saying "i love u' to the gurl. I was
really angry and i run home coz Jin never told me
he love me all the time we been boyfren and
gurlfren.

Then, midnite that day, he come to my house and
i open the door. He just passed me the teddy
bear that he used to give me everyday and said
sorry coz i didn't giv u this today. i was really
angry and i shouted at him,

"Why u alwiz giv me this crap? All i wan to hear
from u is... "I love you" that's it, izit too hard???"

Jin kept quiet. He took my hand and place the
teddy bear on my palm and left away..i throw the
teddy bear into my cupboard.

The next day, Jin asked me out. We meet at bus
stop near my house..i walk there and then he just
gav me a big teddy bear, my anger was still in high
position, and i throw the teddy to the middle of the
road. He keep quiet and then he go to the middle
of the road and pick the teddy up. He dint realise a
truck was coming towards him. I shouted at him
not to pick it up and he was about look at
me, and...........................

*Bang*.


"JIN!!!!!!" I shouted... the next minute he was lying
on the road, covered with blood. He was sent to the
hospital but it's too late...i lost him...forever....

After attended his funeral, i went back home and i
hug all the teddy bear he gav me since the day we
became couples... i counted the teddy bear one by
one...
1...2....3...101...230....300..364...and the last
teddy bear he gave covered with his blood was the
365th... it had been a year we became couple... i
squeeze the teddy bear with the tears flow....
suddenly...


*I love you~*
*I love you~*
*I love you~*

I was shocked.. i looked at the teddys... and i take
one of it, and try to press on his tummy..

*I love you~*
*I love you~*

I tried each and every teddy bear he gav me...

*I love you~*
*I love you~*
*I love you~*
*I love you~*
*I love you~*
*I love you~*......................

And the biggest and the last teddy bear Jin gave
me, I squeeze his big tummy...

*felicia, today is our very first annivery being a
couple after a year... i always love you, yesterday,
today, and forever........ I love you....*

I dropped the teddy bear........
I never realised that Jin had actually told me those
words.. every single day.... till today...

I slowly picked the teddy and i whispered to the
teddy's ear..

"i love you too, Jin..and i always did........"